So last week I decided to commit to a P90X3 in its entirety… I can honestly say, this will be my first P90X experience. I got a bootlegged copy of the DVDs a few years back, but didn’t have the entire program, and didn’t really use the videos all that much. They were more like “fillers” among the myriad of other things I was trying at the time in a desperate attempt to get healthy and lose some weight.
Over the past ten years I have been on somewhat of a fitness rollercoaster. Throughout high school and even into my very early 20s I didn’t care too much about being healthy. Sure, I was unhappy with my body, but I kind of figured that was normal for women. I ate and drank whatever I felt like and secretly swore at myself for being fat or pudgy. I would commit to something, but only partially, and only for a short period of time. This was a dark and hard time in my life. And one I never want to go back to, or worse yet have my own daughter experience.
Fast forward a few years and I was no longer the “fat” girl I used to be, and in fact I had arrived at a place in my life where looking good was what mattered most, and I was willing and prepared to spend as much time necessary to obtain the perfect body. Even almost at the cost of my marriage and my family. I became very selfish with my time and felt like I owed it to myself to be the best looking I could. I tried to tell myself it was for my husband or that it would somehow make me a better mom, but the reality was, it was only for me. It was so that I could feel good about myself. The sad part is, even at my leanest I was miserable. I thought about food all day long. I would stress out if I missed a workout, and my efforts were never good enough.
Here I am today. These are my before pictures. At this point in my life I am not worried about being super lean or even rocking 6 pack abs. I am comfortable (for the most part) in my own skin, but do feel like I would like to make a few small changes here and there. I would like to see a little more definition again, I’d like to increase my athleticism (balance, endurance, flexibility, and power), but most of all I want to feel balanced and I want to be a good leader and example for my kids, my friends, and my family.
I am committing to this program 100%–the workouts, the nutrition, and my Shakeology everyday. I want to see just how far I can push myself. I’ve seen the results for other people, and now I am ready to see the results for myself.
I’m just a mom and wife who wants to be healthy and happy, I want to be able to play with my kids and grandkids (someday). I have done a couple of programs before in the past, but haven’t been fully committed. I would start strong, and then I would fall off. And no, probably not all the way off, but I would allow myself more leniency than I should have.
I don’t believe in being perfect, because I don’t believe perfect exists. But I do believe in leading by example, and I do believe whole-heartedly in Beachbody, their mission, and their products. I guess I am making this public declaration for myself. I am putting myself on the hook in hopes of inspiring even just one other person to step up for themselves.
Over the next few months I will be blogging about my journey and my experience. I’ll be sharing recipes and meal plans. I will be transforming and becoming more the woman I aspire to be. Not just on the outside, but on the inside too! I invite you to join me on my journey, who knows, maybe you will decide that now is your time to shine as well?
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